The weekend unfolded with small moments of connection with others that meant so much. The gathering in prayer that has been the source of my nourishment and inspiration during this most unusual and glorious Lent, in which I let go of rituals the completion of which could serve as a source of self-persecution and just allowed the Spirit to speak as the Spirit saw fit. So many insights, small and large. Large: note the familiarity with which Martha (or was it Mary?) speaks to Jesus about Lazarus. This is O.K. to do two thousand years later. Larger: note that Jesus refuses the role of magician, the special spirit to make everything well. Whether on the mountain, in healing the sick, or in confronting mortality (Lazarus’ and His own), Jesus does not debase his power with special effects. Thank you, Jesus. Small: procrastination can itself be a form of self-punishment, for by delaying we deny ourselves life.
To make matters even more nourishing this weekend, I received a compliment that meant a great deal, and I was able to accept the compliment. This is growth for me. And it was equally lovely to begin a dialogue with a new person. Thanks, Holy Spirit, for allowing me to connect.